i mean i wouldnt mind going to the army, odnt wanna go to german army tho
its pretty bad tho, i missed so many lectures/courses because i cant wake up on time (like, i set an alarm and just turn it off because im so tired and prefer sleeping over everything)
i also skipped a lot of classes, mostly lectures, especially during 2nd and 3rd semesters
but it was because i would stay up till 3am watching arins stream not because i sleep 10 hours a day shashlik style
i kinda feel like i want to switch to anything else, but im not sure what and im too scared to tkae a step towards that (would love to do something like medicine, rocket science etc)
tbh im kinda scared of spending next 40-50 years in front of a screen typing shit
u dont have to literally sit all day and type shit
there are a lot and i mean A LOT of programmers that are like 25-30 and theyre mega normies, travelling around, hitting the gym(our flp teacher lifts some serious weights afaik) etc. because they earn a lot of money
though im super fine with sitting in front of a computer the whole day thats what ive been doing for the last 10 years
don't you have parents or other relatives to give u a shelter at least?
my mother saved money for me until my 18s. in a year, this money will run out. i won't get anything else
i could live at home, sure, but uni is ~200km from here, so that's not an option.
atm there are two options for me:
a) go fulltime school without working except summer holidays
b) go half school, half work so i can be sustainable
either way i'll have more or less 0 time or energy to put effort into dota.
u don't seem to be particularly enjoying dota for the last few years are you?
having to dedicate most of your time to work + study sounds terrible especially after having so much free time to play but if you find a good balance(i.e not tired & stressed out enough to hate ur life) it's better than having too much free time because you will have no time to worry - i very rarely get depressive when i have a lot of shit on my plate, and on the other hand when i'm free i tend to get sad for no reason a lot
i'd love to talk more about that especially since i have similar concerns(though my situation is probably a lot lighter than yours) but i have an exam in 9 hours and i would like to get a good sleep
u don't seem to be particularly enjoying dota for the last few years are you?
it has its ups and downs, it gave me some friends, escape from real life and chance to get considerably better than most people at something for once in my life
i don't regret time spent there although i would definitely feel better if i had one mmr per hour spent but i can blame only myself for that
having to dedicate most of your time to work + study sounds terrible especially after having so much free time to play but if you find a good balance(i.e not tired & stressed out enough to hate ur life) it's better than having too much free time because you will have no time to worry - i very rarely get depressive when i have a lot of shit on my plate, and on the other hand when i'm free i tend to get sad for no reason a lot
i suppose i had similar thoughts during exams, i didn't have much time for anything but studying, i didn't really think about dota or anything else at the time but i highly doubt that i'll be able to keep that up for prolonged periods of time
especially when i consider my field of study one of the most soulcrushing areas to work at that i can think of
maybe i'm just scared to face the reality that i'm never going to become good enough to be in some t3 team and that it should be in my interest to give up and focus on real life
i'm pretty sure you could call me really bad at programming
might be because i'm just an anti-talent, or i don't put enough effort into it (tbh i didn't spend much time doing some practice or anything, i understand the concepts easily but i can't seem to make the step between understanding the basics and then putting them together)
or maybe learning it is more difficult because i don't like doing it, i don't know.
i didn't have much choice though, i am definitely STEM orientated but i don't think that i'm capable of studying purely math or physics and something like engineering is even less appealing to me
also i liked to solve problems and having a steady income with job in that field was also quite appealing
Idek how it's possible to sleep 14 hours like I just won't fall asleep in my bed for that long
Longest is 12 hours and that I will only do after having low sleep for a week and only for 1 day.
Honestly, considering Florian's fapping habits I'm not surprised.
He is a strange boi
also why the fuck my cent game didn't count
LUL game coordinator was down now it's literally gone
RIP -25 mmr
you playing sea? don't worry my game also finished about 20 minute ago and it counted, took some times.
Eu west. It took 1h for the coordinator to show the match stats.
it takes time to analyze how you participate in 30 scrubs genocide tribo
you just entered шашлык-mode spunki
my former roommate spent 2 semesters in this mode
(he dropped out and is in army now)
bbq Kreygasm
Don't let me down.
whats happening with EU W servers? gaben
Genocide lul
i got shish kebab
i mean i wouldnt mind going to the army, odnt wanna go to german army tho
its pretty bad tho, i missed so many lectures/courses because i cant wake up on time (like, i set an alarm and just turn it off because im so tired and prefer sleeping over everything)
road to death
its actually kinda unreal, i never spent that much time sleeping and once i wake up my head hurts like shit for the rest of the day
anyway i still have some good whiskey left so lets finish that up :)
141.9 MB of update for ... nothing
i also skipped a lot of classes, mostly lectures, especially during 2nd and 3rd semesters
but it was because i would stay up till 3am watching arins stream not because i sleep 10 hours a day shashlik style
one of the most unpredictable and difficult exams in the entire course is tomorrow and i dont even care FeelsWeirdMan
we the same I've got an exam in Statistics and I'VE GOT no clue LUL stupid boring ass course
this will actually need a solid amount of planning
i need to think of a way to survive next one or two years with lowest chance of commiting suicide
either way i think that it is going to be impossible for me to play dota after holidays
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imagine if arin lived in america he could go and shoot up a school in 2 years
don't you have parents or other relatives to give u a shelter at least?
ye i rly have to stop dota as well, its consuming too much time :)
i guess u could work (in some computer science job) while studying, u & i should be doing that anyway to pay for ur rent
suicide in 2018 FeelsWeirdMan
studying cs and working in cs is a surefire way to drive urself to suicide
agreed
i kinda feel like i want to switch to anything else, but im not sure what and im too scared to tkae a step towards that (would love to do something like medicine, rocket science etc)
tbh im kinda scared of spending next 40-50 years in front of a screen typing shit
u dont have to literally sit all day and type shit
there are a lot and i mean A LOT of programmers that are like 25-30 and theyre mega normies, travelling around, hitting the gym(our flp teacher lifts some serious weights afaik) etc. because they earn a lot of money
though im super fine with sitting in front of a computer the whole day thats what ive been doing for the last 10 years
i guess, still seems like other studies are more "hands-on" instead of working on a program ResidentSleeper
WAIT I THOUGHT THIS IS SUMMER BREAK FOR EU??? WHY YOU HAD EXAM JUST NOW?
my mother saved money for me until my 18s. in a year, this money will run out. i won't get anything else
i could live at home, sure, but uni is ~200km from here, so that's not an option.
atm there are two options for me:
a) go fulltime school without working except summer holidays
b) go half school, half work so i can be sustainable
either way i'll have more or less 0 time or energy to put effort into dota.
and thats bad because?
Road to normie
because i absolutely hate programming and putting effort into dota feels at least a bit meaningful
it doesnt feel meaningful, its just easy
programming/thinking is hard :)
both of those things are easy if you aren't brainlet
which i am
u don't seem to be particularly enjoying dota for the last few years are you?
having to dedicate most of your time to work + study sounds terrible especially after having so much free time to play but if you find a good balance(i.e not tired & stressed out enough to hate ur life) it's better than having too much free time because you will have no time to worry - i very rarely get depressive when i have a lot of shit on my plate, and on the other hand when i'm free i tend to get sad for no reason a lot
i'd love to talk more about that especially since i have similar concerns(though my situation is probably a lot lighter than yours) but i have an exam in 9 hours and i would like to get a good sleep
night
good night
hows programming easy 4Head
it has its ups and downs, it gave me some friends, escape from real life and chance to get considerably better than most people at something for once in my life
i don't regret time spent there although i would definitely feel better if i had one mmr per hour spent but i can blame only myself for that
i suppose i had similar thoughts during exams, i didn't have much time for anything but studying, i didn't really think about dota or anything else at the time but i highly doubt that i'll be able to keep that up for prolonged periods of time
especially when i consider my field of study one of the most soulcrushing areas to work at that i can think of
maybe i'm just scared to face the reality that i'm never going to become good enough to be in some t3 team and that it should be in my interest to give up and focus on real life
except that i hate real life too
JeSuS u guys monkaGIGA
half of my classmates definitely make it look like that
they dont (unless ure rly bad at programming), everybdoy struggles with programming imo unless ure some prodigy
i still remember my first assignments when i couldnt find a bug for 2 days and it was just a for loop that went 1 iteration too far etc
i'm pretty sure you could call me really bad at programming
might be because i'm just an anti-talent, or i don't put enough effort into it (tbh i didn't spend much time doing some practice or anything, i understand the concepts easily but i can't seem to make the step between understanding the basics and then putting them together)
or maybe learning it is more difficult because i don't like doing it, i don't know.
why did u choose cs if u hate programming
actually i suppose you wouldnt know until u tried
pretty much
i didn't have much choice though, i am definitely STEM orientated but i don't think that i'm capable of studying purely math or physics and something like engineering is even less appealing to me
also i liked to solve problems and having a steady income with job in that field was also quite appealing
It's probably better than sleeping 5-6 hours
gg I'm a page behind
its definitely worse than sleeping 5-6 hours
Honestly tho, CS isn't just abt sitting in front of a screen, it has application in pretty much every single industry.
Idek how it's possible to sleep 14 hours like I just won't fall asleep in my bed for that long
Longest is 12 hours and that I will only do after having low sleep for a week and only for 1 day.
Honestly, considering Florian's fapping habits I'm not surprised.
He is a strange boi
found this behind a monitor when we helped our faculty move some furniture